Am I different from you? Of course I'm not same as you. But, of
course, that's not the purpose of my question.
I like to do things differently. I like to try to do things a
different way and see if it works.
Unfortunately for me, concerning the Princess of my Dreams, doing
things differently hasn't led me to her heart.
But! Doing things like "everybody", I don't know if it works better.
There are so many people refusing to love because they fear being
hurt. Well, that's really not my fear.
I'm not the kind of guy loving going out with a lot of girls just to
have fun. Of course I'd like that somehow. But to me, I have quite
better things to do in my life. And, I hate cheating myself. So when
I'm in love with someone, I don't feel like going out with somebody
else...
Well, I can't and I won't promise that all that will never change.
Perhaps it will tomorrow! Who knows! Sometimes I do things that are
not really good with my mind. I mean sometimes I do things are right
after I wonder how I could have been that fool... and even sometimes I
tell myself I'm a fool while I'm doing the foolish thing: when I feel
as I don't have the control of my mind: I keep going somewhere I
wouldn't go if I was not insane...
But I really like doing things differently, sometimes. Yeah: it means
sometimes I don't like. Sometimes I wish I were so normal. So Mr.
Everybody. I guess I'm weird. I think somepeople look at me with
wondering how come I'm so weird.
I'm not giving up. I think I did manage to put my feelings into a box.
A fragile box. It can be opened at anytime. But now, I'm not too hurt
by my feelings. And I know I'm in love with her.
Well, I don't know if I still want her as before. I mean that I am so
unsure to be able to make her be happy that sometimes I believe we are
better off not-together...
I don't believe in fate. Do you?
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